January 4th, 2009
|11:26 am - Living in a Material World|
I've never really considered myself materialistic. Sure, I like THINGS but I've always felt I could live without a lot of stuff if needed. I'm not the type of girl who would ever buy a purse for more than $100 and a lot of brand name/designer clothing/shoes don't interest me. One reason being that they're probably not in my size. But this last week, I realized that I AM definitely materialistic to a point.
I misplaced my phone on New Year's Eve. I looked all over for it and couldn't find it. Turned out I left it on the kitchen table at a friends house under some plastic bags. I don't even know how I managed that one. But I finally got it back last night. Three days without my cell phone drove me a little crazy. I had my work cell phone as backup, but that wasn't the same.
I also still like having those unique things. Or wearing things that I think look good. I'm not going to get compliments for my natural beauty, so it feels good when someone compliments my purse, my wallet, my jewelry, my clothing, etc. Those things I have to make a conscious decision on and it's nice to have compliments on my taste. Again, being materialstic in that *things* make me happy.
The last week has been good but still super busy. Hung out with some friends on New Years Eve. Two different houses, but both very low-key. Then some newer friends at THEIR house on another night. Met some people through them that night and had a GREAT time. Last night was a Lumberjax game. SO much fun, and cheap too! Too bad we didn't win. But at $10-$20 a ticket, I'll definitely go again.
Tuesday I spent the whole day out in Sandy with my manager and some other co-workers trying to inspect a truck. It had a lot of damage and it took awhile to write the estimate, mess with my computer to get it to work in the middle of nowhere and do all the necessary stuff. $16,000 later and the truck was repairable! We left the office at 900 and didn't get back until 630. Augh. Not a lot done that day. And since we've been super busy, I feel like I keep falling behind. I've got to go in today for some time to get some more done.
I feel like I've been trying not to stress out, but my body is telling me otherwise. I've had canker sores in my mouth the past few weeks and I, unlike my mom and sisters, do NOT get those. I can't even remember the last time I've had one. I have been trying to get enough sleep. And doing pretty well at it. Around 8 hours a night, if not a bit more. Only one day this week did I get about 5.5 or 6. It's just entailed me getting up, going to work, coming home and eating some dinner and then to bed by 1030. So it's not the lack of sleep that's causing the canker sores. I think I've also lost a few pounds over the holidays. My pants are a little looser than normal. Not that it's a BAD thing to lose weight (duh) but when I'm not trying? Oh well. I keep telling myself that things will have to get better. Work will settle down when we go over to 2.0 and I don't have to do outside AND inside stuff anymore. Until then, I think I'll manage.
Guess I should go shower so I can take off to work!
December 19th, 2008
|12:03 am - Concerts!|
It makes me so happy to go to a show, especially when they were as enjoyable as tonight's! I will go to bed a pleased girl.
December 10th, 2008
|08:29 pm - Attraction|
Attraction is a weird thing. Sometimes you're attracted to people you never would have thought you'd been. Other times there's someone who seems great "on paper" but when you're together in person, they just don't do it for you. There are often times where I think a guy is super good looking and I think they're hot, but they don't elicit that feeling of "I would love to spend a night with them" or whatever. You fill in the blank. It doesn't have to be quite to the extent of sleeping with them, but you get my drift. I can only think of a couple of guys where I've felt that. Whether that's upon first meeting them or if that happens later on. There's one guy I met more than a year ago, and I had that instaneous attraction to the first time we've met. It didn't help that he was kind of fliratious too. I've talked to him on the phone a bit and last saw him in January. Saw him again then today. I still feel that attraction and flirtation. He has a girlfriend tho and is out of my league, but that's ok. Flirting is fun. I don't know what it is about him tho. Not everyone would find him attractive. Must be those pheremones.
December 8th, 2008
|10:58 pm - Video!|
xposted to DamnPortlanders
I'm bored so thought I'd post a funny video if you haven't seen it before.
"Prop 8 - The Musical" starring Jack Black, John C. Reilly, and many more... by Jack Black
November 28th, 2008
|11:16 am - ADIML October 31, 2008|
So this is what I posted in the ADIML community earlier today. I copied it over here to make sure the HTML looked ok!
Hi! My name’s Star and this is my 5th ADIML that I’ve done. I’m 28 and from Vancouver, WA (right outside of Portland, OR) It’s a little late, but I finally had the time to do it. My mom and stepdad have been together for 14 years and this the year that they finally decided to get married. They’d always wanted to do it on Halloween, and so this is my day!
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November 23rd, 2008
|11:44 pm - Happy|
My sister shared this with me earlier today and I enjoyed it, so thought I'd share. It just makes me feel happy =) And they used 250,000 real bouncy balls, no CG stuff.
November 4th, 2008
|11:17 pm - Yes, we can|
After September 11th, our country was in a weird place. Our sense of invincibility in our own homes was shattered a bit that day. I remember that sense of insecurity and the feeling that this was something that happened at home. But what stands out to me about that time was the week or so after that day. The country banded together and patriotism was rampant. I would drive to work and see so many flags on cars, on streets, on buildings, etc. It made me feel proud to live in this country. I felt that we were united and I was glad to be a part of it.
Tonight was another night in history that I was proud to bear witness to. We elected a bi-racial candidate, part African-American even, as our next President. Jess, Matt, Jeremy, Hayley and I decided to trek on over to Grand Central for the Willamette Week commiseration/celebration. Driving there was crazy. There were so many people out for the party and trying to get those last minute ballots in. We made our way into the bar and watched the electoral votes slowly add up. At just before 800, a countdown clock showed on CNN, ticking the seconds until the polls closed on the West Coast. As a bar filled with hundreds of people, we counted down along with the clock. As we all said, "3, 2, 1!", we started cheering; feeling confident that our candidate had won and it was just a matter of time before we could celebrate. Within the next 10-15 minutes, it became apparent. Obama was ahead! As CNN officially gave their prediction as Obama as our next president, the bar erupted in cheers and screams. There are only a few times where I felt more elated, and nothing immediately comes to mind right now. We watched as a cohesive group as the win was solidified. The local radio station reported. At one point, a woman started singing "The Star Spangled Banner" and the crowd joined in. McCain gave a great concession speech and I cried a bit with the pride I felt for what we were able to accomplish in this election. The bar became utterly quiet as we all listened to what McCain had to say.
We left the bar and headed for food. There was still a line of people waiting to get in! 20 minutes later, at another bar/restaurant, we watched Obama give his acceptance speech. That man moves me and again, instills more pride in myself and others around me. It's going to be a long, hard road to get this country out of the situation it's in now. But I'm glad that we have Obama to lead the way. My heart is extremely happy right now.
I'm so glad we went to the election celebration. To feel a part of a change so monumental was amazing.
October 22nd, 2008
|12:22 am - Just go to bed, damnit!|
It's almost 1230. I should be in bed. I'm tired even. I've just got this feeling like if I go to bed now, I'll be missing something. Weird. It's not like I'm waiting for anything that might happen now. What's up with that?
October 17th, 2008
|10:30 am - Delayed Gratification|
About two months ago, Amanda and I were approached about a possible position opening on our complexity team. This is a promotion within our office. The job would be the same that we were doing at the time, with the addition of handling injuries to people when our insured was at fault. It’s the next step in our company and basically something that you need to do should you have any other position. It’s also a pay increase, so that’s good. Anyway, Amanda and I both interviewed for the job. I think we’re both pretty evenly matched when it comes to skills, and this was reinforced during the interview and selection process. However, Amanda got the job. Now I was told at the time that it was very close “like grains of rice on a scale close” as told to me by one of my managers. The one thing that they said they thought was better about her? That she had a more “salesmanship” type quality. That perhaps people would relate better to her in their living rooms when trying to negotiate. I get that. Not that I’ve ever had a problem with sales for the most part. I mean, one of my other jobs is totally about marketing and sales. And I kick so much ass at that job that they let me come back this year after I quit in ’07. But anyway, I was totally cool with Amanda getting the job. Especially because my branch manager told me that while Amanda was getting the job then, I would be moved into the same position in about a month. It wasn’t that I wasn’t qualified for the position, but they had to wait for some new people to come to the general population and get situated. Then when they moved me over to complexity, they wouldn’t be killing the rest of the office. Great, I figured. I’ve got another month to fine tune the job that I was already doing and make sure things are in line.
Cue last Friday. My branch manager asked to speak to me about moving over. Turns out that staffing needs have changed a bit. Complexity was handling their features ok. PCS (my side) was still a little busy and one person may be leaving soon for another job. I told him that these were things that I was aware of. I kind of figured that I wouldn’t have been moved over at the time they figured (because this would have been the first week of October). I was ok with this as well. I would feel better if I was where I was needed rather than where I wanted to be. I would hate to go over to complexity and the PCS team be super overwhelmed. My branch manager agreed as well. He basically told me that there was no need for a new complexity rep, but hopefully something would be open soon. It might not be for a few months, but as we are starting a different way of handling claims in March, things could definitely open up. Fine, I figured. Taking it to mean that I should be patient. When a new complexity position opened, I’d be available and ready for it. Yeah, it kind of sucked; but nothing in my control. What could I do? Tell more people to get in accidents and be injured? Haha. I am good at the job that I do now. It’s only recently that I feel very comfortable with what I can do. Not like I’m treading water anymore. I figured when I get my annual salary/performance review I’ll have a better review in my current position than if I was in a new position. So that’s ok. Our conversation that day was actually pretty good. We chatted for about 30-40 minutes about lots of things and he asked me for my opinions on stuff going on in the office. He told me that I was a very valued member of the team. I thanked him when he said that and he kind of looked surprised. He said he’d hoped that I already knew that. I said that it’s always nice to be told those kind of things. All and all, I really enjoyed our talk and I left feeling pretty good about everything.
Yesterday, I’m in my weekly review with my team manager. The branch manager comes in and says he wants to talk to me. Apparently there’s someone moving from Eugene into our area. And yes, you guessed it; she was a complexity rep in that office. She’s coming to Vancouver and will work here. So the complexity position that didn’t exist, still doesn’t. But rather than lose this new person to another company, they’d rather make a place for her here. I get it. But man, if I’m not disappointed. It just feels like any chance I had at a promotion just gets farther and farther away. I still like my job but am a little disenchanted. *sigh* My branch manager DID ask if I’d thought about being an MRR – a field rep who handles all the vehicle damage on a claim. This is part of our new process and wouldn’t really start until March or so. But the position will most likely pay more than the “inside” part of the claim. He said that they haven’t officially finalized who would be the MRR manager but that he would be lucky to have me on his team. I explained that this is not really the part of the team where I’d want to be right now. I’m not against handling property damage ever again. If I intend to have a leadership role at some time (which I do), I know that I’ll have to spend some time as an outside rep. I’m ok with that. I get along well with shops and think that I do fine on inspections. But I like having the more customer interaction that an inside rep will have. And I think I’d like to see more about how the outside stuff works before moving into it. But man, I was so ready to move into complexity. I’m glad my branch manager told me face to face about the other person coming to Vancouver. He had told the team leaders earlier in the day but asked them not to say anything yet, because he wanted to talk to me first. After he spoke with me, he sent an email to the entire office about our new co-worker. Augh. I hope she’s cool. Cause if she’s not; I hope I don’t hate her just a little bit. =)
October 13th, 2008
|10:59 pm - Beauty|
Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt are a beautiful couple. I've always though they were both incredibly good looking. Brad took these photos of Angelina for W magazine. I'm amazed at the quality.